Tuesday, August 1, 2017

Episode 77: Clarity After Hep C Cure

Harvoni kicked Hepatitis C's ass. By the time of mid-treatment, a month and a half after starting Harvoni, there was no sign of HCV in my blood. My post-treatment lab tests gave the same result. My gastroenterologist says he has been amazed at how well his patients have done under this treatment. It's kind of a miracle.

That being said, I keep expecting to see a lawyer's spokesperson on late-night TV asking whether I took this drug and then listing all the "adverse events" (nice euphemism there) that crop up long after the treatment ends. THAT being said, I'm hopeful those effects don't show up for 20 or 30 years, just as HCV hides in one's system that long, seemingly without symptoms.

Of course, I'm an optimist, and I'm hoping taking Harvoni was safe and my cure will be permanent without such "adverse events" appearing some day.

So . . . how has being cured of Hepatitis C changed my day-to-day health?

The most phenomenal result of treatment thus far is how clear the world became once that nasty little virus had been vanquished. I can remember driving on the interstate and looking at the beautiful Appalachian mountains that drew me here and the sky behind them and thinking, "Wow. Everything is crystal clear," almost as if the world had been washed and buffed and polished and was shining again.

"My" mountains and the interstate--though not on
the clearest of days, unlike the clarity inside my
brain, now cured of Hepatitis C!
Photo by my pal Lisa Sheirer

Brain fog is a common symptom experienced by those living with Hep C. (Here's more on the symptom from HepatitisC.net--https://hepatitisc.net/living/hepatitis-c-symptoms-brain-fog/.)

After some thirty years with HCV, the virus had so clouded my brain, both in my visual perception--I was truly in a fog--and in my thinking that I sometimes thought I might have early-onset Alzheimer's. I now know that wasn't and isn't the case. Not only is my visual perception clear again but I am mentally clear as well (with the occasional senior moment nearly everyone my age--58-- experiences).

And I must say that this new clarity is a pretty awesome thing.

I have no doubt that all patients who have been cured of Hep C and its accompanying brain fog experience the same joy when clear sight and thought are restored. I know, as a person whose mental life has always been rich--if muddled and confused for the past few years--this change has given me new hope for my future. Both my livelihood and leisure time involve mental processes such as reading, writing, researching, and daydreaming (or, rather, thinking up new ideas for work projects and for writing stories and essays). The cure has returned to me a long-lost ability to focus that is so important to what I do and how I "see" myself.

I do still have foggy days, but they are few and far between--and that improvement alone is invaluable to me.

As Gary Zukov says, "The characteristics of an authentically empowered personality are humbleness, clarity, forgiveness, and love." It's difficult to have the other three--or much else--when you don't have clarity. Throughout those years when my cognition was hazy and cost me two jobs I loved, I felt neither authentic nor empowered. I felt as if I were a shell of my former self. I'm beginning to feel whole again. Authentic. Empowered. And, damn, that's nice.

I'm trying to keep my posts shorter, so I'll continue this report next time. In the meantime, here's to seeing and thinking clearly!